Saturday, July 12, 2014

I know. Ive been bad about keeping this updated

I've felt so weary lately. I usually post some things on Facebook too and then copy on to here. But I haven't felt like my problems, or anything for that matter, have been important enough for people to read. Half of my friends on Facebook are talking about one friend in particular, and honestly, I don't want to take the attention away from him. He was diagnosed with stage 4 Glioblastoma (brain cancer) yesterday. It was a hard blow for the whole church community.
This kid is fantastic.
He's a musician; he leads worship in the kid's zone, he has recorded his own music on iTunes.
He and his younger sister have their black belts in karate.
He's funny. The entire time he was in the hospital, even if he didn't have the energy to smile, he would crack a joke with the nurses every time they came in to take vitals.
He's an intellectual. He never liked tv, so in the hospital, his mom and him would just talk, or if he didn't have to energy to do that, he would just lie awake and contemplate. what he contemplated, I don't know. He would ask his mom to read to him. She read through the Psalms and a novel I can't remember which one. I remember when his mom posted the title, I was impressed. Through not really. Him and I have had deep book conversations before.
He's always been quiet. not quite shy, but its like he waits for the right moment to say something. he waits to have something awesome to say before saying anything. he doesn't waste words.
You know how when you think about someone, there's always a specific image that comes to your mind first because it's either how you know them best or it's your favorite memory. My mental image of him is during a stage of his life when he wore an Indiana jones hat every single day. He was the weird hat kid and he didn't care that people made fun of him. 
Above all else, he has faith that God will provide with a miracle, with an answer, with everything. he trusts that even if it is God's plan for cancer to be his end, that God's glory will be shown in the process. He still hopes to bring more people to Christ before his time comes. Whether he dies today, or he dies in 50 years.

So because of that, I haven't allowed myself to post since the news broke of the "c word". I like things. I share a recipe. But nothing to take people's attention away from the prayers that this kid needs.

But for you out there, my blog readers, here is my knee update.
I'm now able to bend my knee (with the aid of my arms pulling) to a 115* angle. woo!
When I said before that I could sit like a normal human, I might've been exaggerating. NOW, I can sit like a normal human in a chair. I still can't sit indian style, but my therapist wants me to slowly bend my leg in that direction while sitting. closer and closer to indian every time.
i was on the recumbent bike and i was able to get up to a constant 20 rpm forwards and a constant 35 rpm backwards. thats a far cry from my max of 80 rpm forwards during my personal training. but thats ok.
and I'm able to do all directions on the stairs except one. you may be thinking, "all the directions? theres up and down. what else?" well theres forward up, forward down, backwards up, backwards down. and each of these directions has a starting leg. its my left leg that is bad so before therapy, i could only do R forwards up, L forward down (so i could keep the leg straight), R backwards up, and L backwards down. I can now do both legs on all directions, and the only one i still STRUGGLE with is R forwards down because i'm putting all my weight on my bending bad leg. the instability of going down as opposed to L forward up makes me feel like I'm going to collapse. again. Same goes for if I'm going sideways on a step. good: R up, L up, L down. bad: R down.
So I know what still hurts. I know what still needs to be worked on.
I honestly can't wait to be training again.

oh and also, Im out of pain meds. not my norco. got that. but I'm out of my prescription strength ibuprofen. which is what i take in the morning. so i hope I'm not gonna be feeling that today.

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